Who Am I?

DARK RUM


I will dance a million dances on my last step of, walking on my bare worn feet, and knowing that I gave it all.

I will sing a million verses, until my last breathe out, my life flashing before my eyes

An expiration to my human ways, to my human world

What do you sing about now? Why don't you rock it out? Let the whole world sing it’s song. Why are you thinking? Get out the way and let it sing for you. Let it tell you things you never knew. Let it do the work. Just be there available, for it to pass, through you and out it really doesn’t matter. We have no control sometimes. Just gotta let it go sometimes. I now quit trying. What am I here for and why have I come to earth? And what is my time here? What is my time here? What is my time here for? What is my time here for? What is my time here for? What is, oh, I wonder I think. Do I stop do I just sing, oh. Am I meant for anything? Was it an accident, why am I here? Oh my planet’s far away, and I’ll go back there someday, but for now I’m here singing a song, with a steel string guitar. And a bottle of dark rum.

I will dance a million dances on my last step of, walking on my bare worn feet, and knowing that I gave it all.

I will sing a million verses, until my last breathe out, my life flashing before my eyes

An expiration to my human ways, to my human world


I’D DO IT ALL AGAIN

I really miss you, I know I shouldn’t, but I’m just human

I still want you, I still love you

For now I cannot be your pal

Your smile is still with me, in everything I see

I want to lay with you in silence where we both are free

Can I just go back in time, meet you for the first time, write a different line.

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d be myself complete

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d honour what you need

I see you and me

I know I have to, let go of you and then continue

You are an angel and now a stranger

For now this still has got me stunned

Your laugh is still with me in all the joy I feeI, I want to share it all with you on mountains and the sea

Can I just go back in time, meet you for the first time, write a different line

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d be myself complete

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d honour what you need

I see you and me

In a paradise reality

I dream of bliss, of our ecstasy

I let you go, to the wind and snow

Let the stars explode

What they want me to know

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d be myself complete

I’d do it all again for sure, this time, I’d honour what you need

I see you and me


WHO AM I ?

Volcano in the mountain. Lights up as the sun goes down. There’s one white building over there that lights up at 5.12pm. The moon is bright, oh the moon is full tonight. A bird just sits on that branch there. I’ve been sitting here for hours and I know how it goes. Just watching nature. It moves so slowly sometimes.

Oh the beauty in nothing yeah. Oh the magic in nothing yeah. Oh that place where there’s nothing yeah. And everything oh yeah, at the same time. It’s one of those things. It’s one of those things. It’s one of those things.


I got a plant in my room now. It’s healing and I am healing too. Now that I can’t walk. I sit and I wait. I sometimes meditate. Contemplate on, simple things yeah. The meaning of everything yeah. How I dance deep inside. What’s my song deep inside. Who am I beyond the layers and layers of things I thought I was and know I know so many are false. So many aren’t true. I am finding slowly finding. That pearl that is me, inside like when I was a child, playing in diamond halls of magic and mystery.

I’m okay now with my dark side. I’m just realising it is here. I embrace it. I feel it. I let it go. Like I let everything else go. There's no better or worse, in dark or light. One lives with the other for their whole lives. And so I find peace with that who I find deep inside.

Who am I? 

I ask myself that question a thousand times a day

Who am I? 

I ask myself that question in my sleep. 

Dreams reveal to me, secrets that I never thought I’d find.

Secrets so dark, secrets so frightful, secrets I hide, secrets I fight with, secrets I know, they will go once I hold them all and say hello.

I can't avoid, I can't avoid, I can't avoid anymore

I can't avoid, I can't avoid and I can’t hide anymore



Alexia Chellun